Some of you may well know that I took a nasty tumbel over the weekend and ended up cracking my collar bone. Ever since then I have been staying mostly in bed sleeping. My dreams over this past week have been getting more and more intense. Last nights dream woke m in a panic and I have been up ever since.

The dream starts and I am alone on a rather large hillside. I can see fires andsmoke comming from no fewer then a dozen spots bellow me. A hand goes on my shoulder and I jump ad spin to see Iron Eyes Cody(the crying indian from the 1970s anti litter comercials). He looks past me to the scene of carnarge bellow. "It's Happened(he calls me a name I dont remember but know it is not english.) Gaia will not be held down and sometimes she needs to strech." He points and shows me a slowly spreading crack in the ground,it yawns and splits open and I watch as a massive earth quake grips the valley bellow the hills. I start screaming that I dont want to see this and that I dont want to know about it and he smiles softly and pats me shoulder. "It will come, you know that."

I wake up feeling worn out and more then a littel creeped out.

Lately the dreams have been very freaky. The odd thing is that I am not remembering the whole thing. I wake up and I am like "Why was that walruss in a tux and holding a carp that was playing "aqualung" on a flute?"* and then it is gone. I normally have very good dream recall but as of late that recall has fallen by the wayside. It could be my manic state (read my main ljmoonsson for that),it could be a number of things but I remember the odd bits and thats it. In the past 5 days we have this strange list.

1) see above

2)A monkey and I am offering fish candy corn.

3)I am in a space ship race.

4)Doc Holiday and I are hunting dragons in a jungel

5) I am a mall cop chaing a serial killer called the "Dover Slasher"
very odd stuff.

*=not a random thought really happened, had that dream last night.

My dreams have become fun again as of late. I can not remember all of them but what I do remember is silly light hearted fun stuff. Thats nice,it really is.

I can not make any sense out of my dreams lately. I even had one whole dream that I swear was russian, I dont even speak russian!! My dreams seem all grabled and mixed up and there are people in them I do not know. Maybe the dream fey are giving me the wrong the dreams. Poor things, I know they gotta be over worked.

I have been having strange dreams as of lately. They have been very intense and very real feeling. I feel that there is something more to these dreams than merely being run of the mill stuff. They have rarely been more intense. Very interesting.

I have been having nightmares again. I had some very awful ones thursday, fri, saturday and sunday. They are all very dark and marcabe and leve me feeling a bit wiped out. Hopefuly tonight when I start my new sleep aid they will work themselves out. They are not afecting my waking moods yet but I have noticed a worn out feeling. My nightmares are very vampiresk in nature and often drain me. I hope they will be held at bay for the comming week.

I am taking "calms" once again. As we all know these littel fellas always give me very interesting dreams. I just started them last night, so it should not be long.

I have once again started having dreams that seem to be trying to tell me something. These dreams could be one of the following.

1)actual contact from those across the veil

2)contact with my higher self

3)contact with that part of myself that wants "Ed" to learn something.
Either way there are imporant I belive.

In the first one I am in my room when I hear a males voice calling me. So I go to my window and see my father standing outside. He asks me to go out side so I do. When I get out there he starts talking to me. He tells me that he is proud of me for sticking to the task of taking care of mom. He also tells me to stay tough and not let the littel things get me down or chase me away from the task of taking care of mom.

The secound dream I am in a bar with my freind Dave, he introduces me to a girl he calls "Baily" she is about 27 or so. We Talk for a bit and I can tell from her demenor that something is bothering Baily. Dave wants a smoke so we head outside to a sort of cigar garden. We all smoke a cigar, Daves is a clove cigarillo, Baily smokes a Tajuina Small(cherry) and I smoke a Grape flavored stogie. As we smoke I ask Baily if she is ok, Dave smiles and tells her that he knew I would help her. She tells me her whole story and it sounds to me like she just commited suacide(as dave did some years back) SHe asks me if I can and if I will help her. I tell her I will do all I can. Dave smiles and tells me "Thats why I recomened you man.(I have had this twice in a month)

The last one creeps me out.

I am on a city street and see a lot of people gathered around this old bull on the street. The Bull looks like it is sick or maybe even near death. I start walking over to help it when this native american guy in a 1970s style suit stops me. He tells me that he understands me desire to aid the bull but that it is time for the bull to move on to a diffrent stage.
I didnt think anything about it untill I read the news today and saw the story about the difculty facing the Merill Lynch firm. Their masscot is a bull. Spooky? I thinks so!!

Some odd dreams from the past week or so.

I am swimming in a pool at some hotel. I swim to the side of the pool and speak with a butler for a bit. He informs me that the "United super heros guild" is here to see me about joining them. I step out of the pool and burn to a crisp.


I am outside in a feild at night when a ufo crashes in the feild. All of these littel blue ailen guys are running around hurt and on fire. I try to help them but they dont speak english so it is hard to let them know I am helping and not out to get them. There is a bright light in the sky and I wake up.

Jim Morrison and I are sitting a bar doing shots of whiskey. He looks over to me and asks about my ex girl freind. I tell he what happened and why, he nodds and downs a few shots. He then tells me she is a succubus and that he and I have to turn her over to some sort of group.
I wake up

odd again.

Last night was a night of nightmares. It seems like every dream I had was one. Every once in a while my psyche feels a need to shake me up. I think it is just showing me whos boss.